Back in september or january or whenever
I fully accepted being tubed with mk801 and ket and all those fun things. I enjoyed the circus and spectacle and most of all I enjoyed alec, hairyhills and you trolling me in person. we'd get drunk and watch youtubes together and i'd dance for you and y'all would do stuff when i was asleep (hairyhills raped me and started an avalanche of ugly behaviorism that still reaps a cost on me)
It was unlike anything i've ever experienced in my life, and now its gone, now that i have these ASSHOLES (your friends) only left as stalkers theres a void in my life. i truly fell in love with you and was ready for you to kill me, and aceepted that. its hard for me to move on.
i know you dont feel the same way, and i was just a plaything to you, but it'll take me time to fully grasp that. the heart doesn't listen to reason. i hope you understand