did she ever even like me
I broke my phone on the street
I wanted to call you so I did that instead
please don't abandon me
I know I fucked up by smoking those old vapes. The problem is that after a while of not being tubed I get to convincing myself it never even happened/wasn't real, and I get a little bit not careless but confident. And then reality crashes on me and I break and I feel so awful that I'm even in this context at all, that I got myself to this godawful place, and I feel a nervousness and depression from mercury deep in my fucking bones that all I can do with that pent up emotion and fucking regret is scream and hit something but I don't wanna fight some random and go to prison so I fight myself.
im really fucking sorry that it changed how u look at me, you're making me feel even worse now