When I see my reflection I realize what a pathetic mistake I am and that I feel an overwhelming urge to kill myself.15 posts and 2 image replies omitted. Click reply to view.
I can't really indulge these feelings though so much while so sick, it just causes me terrible suffering, I need to get better before I can even indulge in so much self-hatred and work up a plan to kill myself.
Once I feel warm and am okay I can kill myself.
I need to stop thinking like this but reality is very real, I can't help but see the body I am trapped in, and the world I'm in. It's all so awful.
I think I'm hearing some auditory hallucinations now in the last little while btw. Before I only hallucinate tactile and visual. Now I keep hearing crickets, frogs, and other creatures that gather around a pond. I keep hearing them all the time, I'm hearing something right now. Maybe there is an actual source for this sound, but it seems to me like a hallucination. It's winter, how can I hear some many frogs and crickets and birds? I hear right now especially some bird chirping sounds and I don't get it…
let me google that for you
ever considered monkmaxxing?
Okay sure I hope I don't look like total shit.
I literally have every single symptom on that list except maybe metallic taste.
What time should I expect you? Also I just fucked up shaving so now I got all these cuts all over my neck, every time I attempt to shave it's a bloody disaster, I've tried to disinfect it though with rubbing alcohol but usually it appears even worse the next night after.