I hate reformers. Between "change the world" and "change yourself" I choose change yourself. Tired of hearing people talk about how the system is fucked and unjust and blah blah blah. The people of Canada are evil and corrupt and have a government that reflects it. Nobody can change it who can't even defeat a simple vice in themselves, who can't exercise basic self-control, prioritization, etc. in their own lives. Furthermore I am tired of unserious people in regards to the exploration of psychic phenomena. Everyone's got some experiences with it; but they don't try to understand, develop, and master it. I need someone who actually is willing to put in the time and walk the path with me. If nobody has that then I have to go it alone and that sucks but it is what it is. The people of Kitchener-Waterloo disappoint me. I think I should evoke the rambler and hang out with him for a day, I did awhile ago and we hanged out for only a few minutes, and he simply said that people have lost a sense of their inner-child. The rambler is the only one right now whose presence I feel honoured to be around everyone else I just see the pattern, see the loops they are stuck in, and feel them to be inferiors.
I also have a sense that the world doesn't need me. This world does not need me. It's like how it's written in Swami Vivekananda's work in Karma Yoga. And not out of redundancy but like I don't play a part in this and am not here to save anyone or be anything to anyone and the world has nothing for me either; so it's time to leave. That's how I feel. Everyones life and what they are working out here does not include me. I am not sure why I am here. I feel invisible, observing; a kind of ghost.