y'know, i thought that neeting was gonna be fantastic, warm at my home, playing games, watching anime all chill and cool but i don't feel happy, in fact, i feel empty and sad, it feels like every fuckin day is the same, it has been a year since the pandemic began but everything feels the same, even at my shitty job i felt more alive.
now i don't even know how to feel, for once i want to keep neeting but i also want to go out to face the fuckin world. i literally feel like a child, afraid of going out and having constant panic attacks but i also feel the necessity of going out.
think being afraid of going outside
That kinda me now
More gang afraid to speak or leave room
gang tubed by drugs and alcohol
Hmm mayhaps, mayhaps
I always have mental health problems tho